december blues

I thought I was a bigger person than this... but I am wrong.

I thought I have never hated anyone but I am wrong...

I saw a picture minutes ago and it incited very negative feelings inside of me... I got into bed trying to sleep but I just can't shake off how I felt...

I talked to J... it helped a little...

I talked to dad.. it helped a little...

So I decided to write my feelings out... 

Happy pictures of this person simply piss me off cos I don't think this person deserve it...  I used to sympathise with this person.. but now all I feel is anger... and jealousy perhaps... that made me feel even worse.

Live well - I told myself... cause that is the best revenge