Wednesday, September 17, 2014

tolerence

learning to hold my comments

learning to hold my anger

learning to take it easy

learning to be patient

learning to control my temper

learning to undo my idealism

learning to blend in

learning to localise


breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe breathe

--- outspoken bitch signing off

savior?

Finally found a qualified therapist for Landon... BCBA, US grad, eight years of working experiences with special kids... . can't wait to meet her...

If this work out, I won't have to move to Singapore.

Yeay...

jugglers

I have been juggling laundry, moping, managing the kids and pursuing the franchise at the same time...

I admit.  These have taken a toll on me and the difficult part is not receiving any support.  On top of that, we have to deal with their negativity thrown right in our face, on a daily basis.  Look, I am only human...

I don't mind the physical hardship... just keep your tongue in cheek comments to yourself ok.

a new year

ah... finally I am back... this is beginning to be an annual web diary for me.

could it be life is too slow here that I have nothing to update?

or could be I had been contented with life the last 16 months and found no need to use this outlet of stress.

or did too many things happen and I had no time to write?

whatever it is...  Everytime I think of this place, this outlet, this blog, it is always in my times of depression.

the last one year had been tough for me.

1.  L

my biggest worry has been L.
his development, his behavioral issues, his speech, his fine motoric skills, his understanding of the world...

i think it had come to the lowest point last August after our holidays.  so much so that we enrolled him in endless speech therapies, occupational therapies (what the hell is that?) and eventually ABA program early this year.  I even stayed in Singapore with him for four months and sent him to an Autistic school even though he wasn't autistic thinking he might benefit from the intensive program there.

sad to say, only the only thing we got is a thinner bank account but there were no significant positive change in him.

after months of trying everything else, his speech improved!  and it is true, there are no short cuts in life.... according to a therapist, everything can be taught to a child, even a low functioning one, through practice and persistence.

L is still far feom peers his age but he is now able too use the scissors and does some pasting... his areas of interests have expanded, enabling him to enjoy a wider range of activities, thus improving his fine motoric skills and mental development.

now, the main issue is compliance, which is crucial to his learning.  that also mean he often disrupts his class lesson time and I was called in to meet his teachers and principal this week.  they requested a shadow teacher.... yes, I said.  u can find one, i will pay.  they then said they will get a college student or fresh grad... sigh... if they think all they need is a pair of hands to hold him down, then so be it.  I am too tired to explain the role of a shadow teacher, what more the qualifications involved.

I have to juggle Ashlyn, Landon, housework and sacarsm from housemates at the same time.  so I wouldn't waste too much effort on this.  sometimes we have to consider the quality of our audience before we decide to communicate to them.  this is also applicable to the ego centred chinese teacher in Ash's school who openly put her down because Ash questioned the teacher on the accuracy of the pronouciation of a mandarin word.  instead of explaining and teaching my girl the correct pronouciation, the defensive teacher said: if some people don't want to learn from me, they can learn from their mums.  geez.. she is only six for pete's sake.  and she asked because she is eager to learn.. I had met several teachers in my life- competent, incompetent, but never a defensive incompetent one who is so hard up about her ego that she forgets who she is.. and the role she plays in a child's world...  for a child, teachers are everything... what teachers say, they over ride what a parent taught.

well, thanks for the patient ear.  my husband wouldn't have kept quiet for so long without interupting...