Bad luck

As luck would have it, or as bad habits go...

I got slapped with a 400 dollar fine yesterday for holding my phone while driving.  Technically I wasnt driving cause I was stopping at the traffic light.  But who was I to argue with the man in uniform.  They always think they are right.

To be honest I am addicted to my phone.  Who isnt? They are so smart. And they get us out of awkward situations... We can whip it out anytime we are alone or when we feel we are ignored.

So, it has become such that I like to handle it once in a while for no reason; sometimes just to check instagram which has no updates...

Ok, so 400 bucks saved my life... It is distracting and dangerous to use the phone when driving.  Several times I was delayed in the traffic light because of it...  I guess I deserve it.

I am still traumatised by my phone at the moment. And everytime I look at it, I see the policeman. Yuck.  What an unpleasant feeling...

So, if u r reading this, dont use the phone when u r driving. Dont even hold it. Dont even look at it...

I wonder when they are going to forbid music whilst driving too. It's distracting.  What about thinking of problems whilst driving ... And drinking water, talking to kids, ... Etc...

White Picket Fence

Behind every white picket fence, there is a story we don't know.

M has everything; a big beautiful house, a loving doctor husband, the smartest sweetest boy ever and an autistic daughter.

Likewise, when others look upon ny life and the pictures that I showed... Do they see the white picket fence that we see everyday?

The white picket fence that we hide behind?

Cause sometimes we want things to be alright.

We want people to think we are fine...

And we feel fine?

I lost it

swimsuit


I lost L swimsuit at the waterpark today. And i blame it all on bananas...

What happened was, it was a long weekend due to Labour Day in Australia and M planned a day at the waterprk with her two kids. M is my sis in law, husband's side.

The day started out ok. I got a little lost and finally got there not long after M.  I was a tiny bit disappointed she didn't wait for me at the entrance but understood the kids might have been impatient.  Got a text from her saying she was waiting for me at the pool.

I didn't know where to change and ended up in this faraway open air locker, changing in a portale toilet... The wind was very strong and I was reluctant to let L swim as it was very cold... But since M was waiting, we went... In our swimsuit, we went to the pool area, braved the cold water and crazy wind and M was bowhere insight. Seriously, my heart fell at that very moment.  I was stupid enough to stand in the cold, dripping wet with L and kept waiting for M to appear...  After half an hour, M's husband appeared and said they changed their plans as the it was too cold...

Ok...

So we left and changed into our shirts in the faraway toilet and braved the bloody cold once more. Felt sick to the bones. L was shivering long after he got dressed. Understand that he is a weak skinny lil thing...

On the way to look for M, L saw some rides and took them.  That was the point that I gave up on basic human relation n teamwork and just f it and did what he wanted.

We finally caught on w M for lunch, then did our own things again as M was clearly not interested to have the outing together.

I don't think I was too sensitive... I am just too aware of human and their intentions... That made ne such a loner, with few solid friends...

Anthony said people know that too... And that's why they shun me.. Hahaha

It all this fretting about L, I left his swimsuit at the park...

Sometimes, our grading of how nice a place is depends on our feelings at that time... I don't know if the park was nice... It didn't feel good then...

Bananas? Asians who live overseas for so long they think and behave like angmohs... 無情。

Cause M left with her brood earlier without us...

Sigh